Pain is waking up wanting to be back asleep, as that is a lot safer as a world. Pain is wanting those killer thoughts to go away. Pain is wanting your heartbeat to slow down, just a little bit.   Heart racing, rushing thoughts and out of breath, I’ve only... Read More
I feel like I’m walking on sunshine. I stride through dozens of people with my coffee. I love life. I walk faster and faster, listening to some music, singing along to the words. I get back to my house, looking at my tasks for the day. I’m so excited to... Read More
My shirt has become a towel or a tissue; it’s absolutely soaked, but I don’t really care. What I care about is the woman crying in my arms. It’s the fifth day in a row this week but every day, I support her. I want her to smile and to... Read More
A conference is a pretty harmless place to be, you would think. Maybe boring in some cases, but pretty harmless. For the average attendee, you sit there, pay attention and take notes. I am doing just this for now. Yet I don’t know when IT will start. When IT will... Read More
“Go on, let’s have another pint!” I say, trying to be persuasive. “No thanks, I better go on. Back to the wife,” replies Trev. “Well, what about you guys?” I ask, turning to my other two mates. “Na,” they both reply, as they, too, move to stand up and grab... Read More
Pump, pump, pump. The blood charges through me, making sure that I get enough oxygen. To make sure that I know that something bad is about to happen again. My head hurts; once again, it has been working overtime. I stand here, smiling, as I talk to my mates on... Read More
I walk slowly, out of the house, down the drive and eventually onto the street. I do not allow my eyes to meet anyone else’s. I stop as I clench my fists and then I run my hands through my hair. My breathing is disjointed. I head back to my... Read More
Every morning I wake up and then immediately want to go back to sleep. I try to see how many times I can hit snooze to delay facing the pain and problems. It’s not that I am tired nor am I lazy but it’s because the dream world is so... Read More